I remember I almost cried watching the first episode of Black Rock Shooter, almost cried watching the second one, and almost cried again watching the third. Almost, just almost.
I just watched the fourth episode and for the first time, I really did cry. I’ve always thought that I wanted to cry because of Mato and Yomi, fucking otp. But now I’ve realized that it’s not because of that. I mean of course, the precious lesbian relationship between Mato and Yomi will always make my heart cry. That’s pretty much a given. But this beautiful otp wasn’t really the reason to my continuous urge to cry. The real reason was Yomi’s personality.
The more I learn about Yomi’s personality, the more I realize how similar my personality is to hers. The similarity sure surprises me. To me, looking at Yomi is like looking at a reflection of myself, and for some reason that makes me want to cry my heart out. I guess it’s because looking at her also allow me to realize how much I suffer from the things I do and the way I think.
Yomi gets jealous quite easily, jealous in a caring kinda way I guess. Um does that even make sense? Well, she seems to want to keep Mato and Kagari all to herself. I guess not exactly all to herself, but she’s still pretty selfish in a way. When she sees Mato with Yuu or when Mato mentions any of her friends, Yomi immediately feels left out. Same goes with Kagari. After watching episode four I notice how upset she looked when she saw Kagari being surrounded by people in the class.
Yomi had always thought that her existence is extremely important to Kagari. So seeing how well Kagari is doing without Yomi’s help upsets Yomi and that’s where her selfishness is really seen. Then when Yuu texted Yomi and introduces herself as Mato’s friend, Yomi went insane. In other words, she lost her shit because now she realizes that she’s not Mato’s only friend and so she starts thinking that her existence ain’t so important to Mato, nor Kagari.
It’s like she wants to be everyone’s closest friend, she wants to be someone whose existence is so extremely important to someone. I honestly don’t think that’s a bad thing. It’s quite obvious that she’s also very caring towards Mato and Kagari. She’s a caring yet selfish friend. She wants to be recognized. She wants to be loved. Takanashi Yomi is lonely and she wants to confirm that her existence is necessary in other people’s life. Yes that’s it.
Yomi is not exactly someone who you would describe as an outgoing person. She doesn’t have much friends. It also seems like she doesn’t really put much effort into actually making some friends. That’s probably because she does not actually want a lot of friends. But she sure treasures the ones she has. That’s where her selfishness, jealousy, and paranoia kicks in.
Hmm so I just summed up Yomi’s personality in four paragraphs huh. Very short summary indeed. Uhm so those four paragraphs not only describes Yomi, but describes myself as well. Yomi..is extremely similar to me, or shall I say, I’m extremely similar to Yomi.
The fact that I can relate to Yomi in so many ways makes this whole show (brs) so precious to me and also makes Yomi such an amazingly precious character. Seeing Yomi suffer is like watching myself suffer too, and THAT makes me want to cry.
